You seem so calm and reserved, seeking not the trouble of
anyone and yet just a startle agitates your calmness and brings you pouring on
me like rain
Strange enough, your presence and your touch seems
comforting; tickling every sensory spot in my mind and body. Heightening my
emotions and leaving me bare and numb to any pure voice
Where from this bond that seems to bind us so well? I do not
understand………….
Deducing from the behavior of our relationship, I realize
there is something unique in me that responds to your call alone; some
conjugate foci.
The soothing touch that keeps my heart and mind in a state
of perpetual excitement.
Deep inside I acknowledge the ecstasy you bring, but deeper
within I feel the end is dead and transforms into a trap.
Two nights ago I
remember you cared for me, caressed my imaginary hair and drove me high.
Screaming in silence and seeing things that aren’t there. Fantasizing about
butterflies, rib and dust formed creatures of all races
Two nights ago I caught your signal from the TV, but I
ignored you because I was busy. My mind wasn’t ready. I heard you again on the
radio but I was engrossed with what mum had asked me to do. Then you had to
send the neighbors daughter to say hello. That indeed was very smart of you I
must say because it worked like magic.
Like a lunatic my thoughts jumped into Disney land, focusing
all my imaginative energy in things that kill me blindly.
Again I’m realistically alone and yet virtually surrounded
by you. This is almost always an invasion.
Each time we have fun, each time you walk out of the palace
in my mind I feel alone, used and I regret entertaining you but amidst this
desire lies the anger and want.
Is this witchcraft or
my own desire to distort my own self psychologically?
LUST, you are shrewd
and I hate you.
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